Campbell Meditation Experience - After all these years, I have finally found God within Sue / Real Estates Agent / Cupertino / CA
After all these years, I have finally found God within
Sue / Real Estates Agent / Cupertino / CA
When I look back at my life, I realize how fortunate I was
in so many respects. Among those many things I am so grateful for, I am most
grateful that I have finally found God within me.
in so many respects. Among those many things I am so grateful for, I am most
grateful that I have finally found God within me.
Growing up in a stressful living situation where my parents
fought almost daily, I would often lie in bed at night, and even before the age
of 5 and I would ponder about why I had been born into such an unhappy family.
I prayed to God every night – even though I didn’t know what God looked like or
where God was – to please make it all stop somehow. I desperately wanted to be
a happy, carefree child who wanted to be loved and feel accepted. And even at
that tender age, I wanted to know the meaning and purpose of my existence. I
wanted to know where people go to after they died, because truthfully, as
unhappy as I was, I did not want to ever die.
fought almost daily, I would often lie in bed at night, and even before the age
of 5 and I would ponder about why I had been born into such an unhappy family.
I prayed to God every night – even though I didn’t know what God looked like or
where God was – to please make it all stop somehow. I desperately wanted to be
a happy, carefree child who wanted to be loved and feel accepted. And even at
that tender age, I wanted to know the meaning and purpose of my existence. I
wanted to know where people go to after they died, because truthfully, as
unhappy as I was, I did not want to ever die.
Growing up, I attended Calvary Christian School and Temple
Baptist School where I was taught about Jesus, love, forgiveness, and eternal
life in heaven. We had Bible studies after lunchtime and sang hymns on Fridays.
And during Bible study, we were always told that heaven exists within us and
that God is within us. But quite honestly, I couldn’t see what they were
talking about. No matter how much I memorized and recited the Lord’s Prayer, no
matter how hard I prayed, I didn’t know what I was looking for. And as if I
were someone keeping track of all the times I felt I had been wronged, I could
not find it in my heart to forgive others.
Baptist School where I was taught about Jesus, love, forgiveness, and eternal
life in heaven. We had Bible studies after lunchtime and sang hymns on Fridays.
And during Bible study, we were always told that heaven exists within us and
that God is within us. But quite honestly, I couldn’t see what they were
talking about. No matter how much I memorized and recited the Lord’s Prayer, no
matter how hard I prayed, I didn’t know what I was looking for. And as if I
were someone keeping track of all the times I felt I had been wronged, I could
not find it in my heart to forgive others.
In retrospect, amidst all the fighting, my parents must have
also been yearning for peace. Over time, my parents, particularly my mother
took me on Saturdays to the nearby Seventh Day Adventist Church and after
several years, we began attending mass at the Catholic Church. As I sat through
the many long masses on many Sundays, I still could not find heaven within.
also been yearning for peace. Over time, my parents, particularly my mother
took me on Saturdays to the nearby Seventh Day Adventist Church and after
several years, we began attending mass at the Catholic Church. As I sat through
the many long masses on many Sundays, I still could not find heaven within.
And such is how I lived my life. Always praying, always searching.
Reading many books. Attending various retreats. Going to many places. While I
gleaned something new in each place, I was not able to fulfill the ultimate
purpose of my search, which was to find God within me, to find heaven within
me.
Reading many books. Attending various retreats. Going to many places. While I
gleaned something new in each place, I was not able to fulfill the ultimate
purpose of my search, which was to find God within me, to find heaven within
me.
One fateful day, I had a chance encounter with this
meditation through an acquaintance. As she told me that there was an actual way
to find God within me, my ears perked up and right away, I attended an
introduction at the meditation center. There, the helper explained why people
cannot see God within. That it is because we are each living inside our own
world that is inside of our own mind, and this fake world is made of pictures
that we filmed of the world. So the mind of God was hidden by our own mind’s
world. The way she illustrated on the board told said it all.
meditation through an acquaintance. As she told me that there was an actual way
to find God within me, my ears perked up and right away, I attended an
introduction at the meditation center. There, the helper explained why people
cannot see God within. That it is because we are each living inside our own
world that is inside of our own mind, and this fake world is made of pictures
that we filmed of the world. So the mind of God was hidden by our own mind’s
world. The way she illustrated on the board told said it all.
The method is to discard that false mind world of my own
that I had made. And after doing this meditation, it finally happened. All
those heavy things I had been carrying around in my heart and the weight of the
world on my shoulders had finally been lifted. It was like the veil had been
lifted and the dark clouds disappeared. And there, all along, was God. And
heaven. It is within me everyday. And everyday I live in heaven while living. I
am so grateful to this meditation and to Master Woo Myung for giving the key to
find the truth within me.
that I had made. And after doing this meditation, it finally happened. All
those heavy things I had been carrying around in my heart and the weight of the
world on my shoulders had finally been lifted. It was like the veil had been
lifted and the dark clouds disappeared. And there, all along, was God. And
heaven. It is within me everyday. And everyday I live in heaven while living. I
am so grateful to this meditation and to Master Woo Myung for giving the key to
find the truth within me.